The weather outside is frightful...

What was previously Hurricane Sandy is now a Post-Tropical cyclone, aka Superstorm Sandy. I suddenly realized that I may be starting cycle number 2 this week and I should make sure my meds can get here.  Thank goodness for specialty pharmacies in California, because the east coast is toast!  Also doubly relieved we didn't lose power for very long; I just remembered I have 6 cartridges of Follistim in my fridge. That would have been pretty ugly.  I am going to check it now to make sure it's not frozen or anything.

WTF...

Had this appointment today. It's just like it sounds; you sit down with the doctor and try to figure out what the f*ck went wrong.

So the short answer is we don't know. My protocol dosages will get increased for the next one of my meds is changing. Hoping we just get more to work with. And that they are reachable; found out today that they left two the last time.

IF-1, Me, 0

IVF#1 is officially a bust. I've kinda known in for a couple of days; maybe the PMS gave it away? No... The bleeding; yeah that was it. Officially confirmed by the nurse at 2:59 yesterday.

FU, IF

I alternate between tearing up and not feeling anything. Wierd, huh?

When the nurse called and told me it was negative, I just said, "OK, thank you" and wanted to hang up. Now I just want AF to be over. Having the worst cramps ever. ::sigh::

At least I can have a big hunk of rum cake or a daiquiri this weekend. I have my WTF appointment next week, but I don't know when we'll try again.

Agony prolonged

Started real spotting today, and not the good time. Nurse wants me to come in tomorrow morning for beta and do progesterone just in case.

8dp3dt

Continuing progesterone suppositories despite the PMS symptoms that I am getting. Beta is on Thursday, so wait is almost over. My original plan was to POAS tomorrow, but I used the last one Thursday morning; just couldn't wait. That was the earliest potential time to get a BFP, but it wasn't. Now I will wait until the beta, as I won't buy any more.

I have good news about another attempt if we need it; B is good with us going through another cycle and we have enough insurance money left to try again. Still hoping this one works.

Went to an audition of Family Feud today. Steve Harvey was funny. It's been a challenging few weeks, so it was good to laugh.

Isn't it ironic, don'tcha think?

Having early morning insomnia, so playing Chicktionary on my phone. Missed one word: fertile.

You just can't make this stuff up.

If you can wait, and not get tired by waiting...

It's now 5dp3dt (5 days post 3 day transfer, for those not in the know). It's another 8 days before my scheduled beta. The days are going quickly due to work, but the nights... Another story.

I took the time on Monday morning to test if the trigger was gone, and got a negative test, as expected. So the next + sign means pregnant! OhpleaseOhpleaseOhplease.